25 going on 10

Last Thursday I decided to take a walk down to downtown San Jose on my lunch break. I checked out Christmas in the Park and took some pictures of the church and people ice skating, ogled some cute business men, stared at some employees of the carnival and thought how in general I am just disappointed with the carnies these days. Where the hell is the alligator man and the fat lady in a pink tutu? Dammit I want to see a 400 pound woman with a beard smoking a cigarette! Instead there was only this guy who looked like my ex boyfriend. Well, I guess you could say that had the potential to be grotesque, but c'mon, he can't look like everyone's ex. So that's a very small demographic right there.


So while wandering around I noticed the multitude of kids. One asked me for a cigarette and I asked to see his id. When did I get this righteous? This old? Here's the thing, I really meant it when I asked him how old he was. Damn kid has no business smoking. Walking in front of me at one point was a group of young boys, admittedly cute, and I see them do double takes as girls walk past. It was so cute, and I thought, "I remember that."


I've changed a lot these last two years. Which I think has everything to do with me being single for most of it. To put it mildly, I am way more opinionated, independent and vocal. Which may be a harbinger of many more single years to come =)

Still, this season has brought about finals, Christmas shopping, moving and for all my grown up independent ways I have to admit that I am fairly tired and mildly stressed. I went home for New Years, and unexpectedly I am still here. In fact I am enjoying it so much that I have no real plans to leave anytime soon. I know I have to, but for now I am content to think that that day will never come.

I played video games with my sister Friday night. The new video games are SO hard! OMG! That kind of made me feel old. We went to bed at 3 am and I didn't wake up until 3:30 in the afternoon. I never sleep that much. Wandering into the hallway I told my mom that now I understand why when women leave their husbands they go home. I don't have a husband to leave, but still. I put a glass down and when I come back it has magically migrated to the kitchen sink! Later someone else washes it! People ask me if I'd like dinner and not only do I not have to cook it I don't have to drive to get it either! When I get up somehow the bed gets made while I am watching TV. I'm not sure but this may be heaven.

I watched my Nana for a while this afternoon while my mom and aunt ran errands. Then afterwards me and my sis went to Target where we got her a memory card for her gamecube. On the way home we rolled the windows down and laughed hysterically out the window like mad scientists whenever we noticed fellow motorists with rolled down windows. I love kids. You can do crazy outrageous things and they just laugh hysterically. Grown ups are dumb. When you do foreign accents and celebrity imitations they just pull out business cards with their therapists information on it. They don't say it but I know they think I'm nuts. I think they're nuts. What in the hell do they have bottled up inside them if they have to take life so damn serious all the time?

Right now my family's playing poker, drinking tequila and I'm getting ready to play game cube. If I wanted I could probably get someone to do my laundry, but that feels like pushing the envelope too far. I got sick again today and my mom made me soup and got me some aspirin with a glass of water to wash it down. I want to move in.