Quitter

AUGH. Am a quitter. Well... will be by the end of the day at any rate. Hate my new second job. My new second job requires that I show up at my first job @ 7:30 vs. 8 so that I can leave at 4:30 to sprint the mile across downtown so that I can then work 5-9. Five days a week.

I used to work 12 hour shifts all the time! Once I worked 7 days a week for a total of 60 hours for two and a half months straight! No time off, no leaving early, no extra breaks. I am suddenly painfully aware that I am no longer 18. What happened to the girl who used to carry 12 units while working 48 hours a week and getting by on 4 hours of sleep? Why do I suddenly think I am too good to work for someone that has half the education and experience that I do? Any sense of superiority is false. This is what I always tell myself. I hate it when my beliefs are tested.

Anyway am quitting. For the record I am calling previous patrons of the theater and inviting them to subscribe to this seasons programs. I get hung up on a lot. That's ok. I can take rejection. But then on my last shift I had a lady who told me that her husband had just left her and although she immensely enjoyed the theater she simply couldn't afford it this year. I offered her my condolences and said we hoped to see her back soon, in the meantime take care. When I got off the phone my manager said that I should have told her the theater is a great place to meet someone new.

WTF?!

I just laughed and asked him if he was serious. He said that he was and I kept laughing and told him that under no circumstances was I ever going to tell someone that.

I am not 18. I do not live with my mommy. For whatever misguided reasons I no longer feel that I have to listen to someone like this simply because they happen to possess the title, "manager". Yes I am disgusted by my lack of respect but I have to admit to myself that this might not be the job for me. It is testing my belief that I am a good person with a decent work ethic. Of course quitting also damages that theory... so I'm kinda stuck.